you're all this heart is living for.

God has been extremely good to me lately. I am listening to Him daily for the first time in such a long time and it is the most refreshing aspect of renewing myself again. Someone asked me the other day if I sought God out for his beauty or for His usefulness, and of course, I replied with the latter. I realized that at one point in my life I did seek Him out for His beauty, I realized that was almost four years ago. Time has gone on so quickly. I am approaching the real world soon, and since those days of sheer love for God, I have lost myself in between books, boys, and just about any tangible distraction that I could hold on to.

I didn't realize how much discipline it takes to actually seek Him out. I regret every moment I replaced Him with something else. I really missed this peace that I drove away myself. I cannot wait for the future and all that He has planned for me. I am so excited for now and for the first time ...I am really embracing the life that I was meant to live.

i'll never say that i'll never love.

Did I really just delete half a year of journal entries earlier this week? I did. There was something about cookie recipes and themes of uncertainty that left me almost afraid to look back.

I'm starting over (again) with a lot of things in life, and from now on, everything stays (good or bad).

So much has happened, and I am finally growing into my skin.

This has been overdue. I am so excited for what God has to offer for my life.